As I sit here writing this I think…people are going to hate my blog…it always starts with a pessimistic snide remark about woe is me!!! But, despite the fact I’m usually on here venting after a horrible defeat of the week, I do really want to make permanent life changes. I guess I’m the girl who is stuck between a rock and hard place.
I’m working on myself spiritually …pouring myself into every Bible study I can find. I have a true thirst to become not just an associate of Christ but, a true disciple. But, I won’t go into too much detail because this is not a religious blog but my weight loss story. However, my spiritual development is intertwined with my desire to loss weight. With an already ridiculously packed schedule, I find myself picking between the gym and Bible study. 9 times out of 10, Bible study wins and I’m stuck feeling guilty about my laziness for the rest of the night.
However, I could be using Bible study as an excuse to not go to the gym…so I’m confusing myself. In a world where you have a million options on ways to spend your day…its tough to make health a priority. If truth be told…I have more than enough time if I quit polluting my mind with reality t.v…. a move that will help me both spiritually and physically.
Long story short….I woke up…motivated…eager…ready…..put on my gym clothes….grabbed my water bottle….went back and grabbed my earphones and cell phone….ran out the house, smiling, ready for my workout…door slams….and I realize….I have left my KEYS in the house and I am locked out!!!! So…. after waiting for someone to rescue me …my motivation died and I was left at home feeling defeated once again!!!
So, was that divine intervention telling me I’m perfect the way I am or the enemy trying to deter my plans????